Tuesday, August 18, 2009
I want to know. I have always wanted to know.
Why can't I see all the stars in the sky? Where do the birds go when it rains? How do I draw a box so it doesn't look flat on the page? Why can't I climb onto our roof? Who decided dogs should bark and cows should moo? Why do storms bring thunder? How does a photo get into my camera? What would clouds feel like if you could hold them? What makes honey sticky, lemons bitter and sugar sweet? Do owls have eyelashes? How do planes stay up in the sky? Why does my sister have curls and I have straight hair? How did the picture get into our T.V? Why do books have to end? And my favourite question when I was little, why is it bedtime?
Now I am older, I still want to know. What I want to know has changed somewhat. But I still have to ask. Where does gentle live? How many days do I have left to kiss my sons? Will I ever know all there is to know about my husband? Does love really get better after 50? Will I find beautiful when I look in the mirror one day? Will enough ever be good enough? Why do children have to grow up? When are they ever going to grow up? Is happy moving into my heart on a permanent basis? Why do men find their farts funny? Will my book ever be published? What's up with my chihuahua obsession? How much longer before I feel like a whole person? Can anger be embraced and not be destructive?
I still want to know if I will ever be able to see all the stars in the night sky and no, I can't believe it is bed time yet.
A woman I admire told me once that she likes questions because without them there would be no answers. And she asks the best questions of all. What does the pain look like? What do you not want to talk about? What would anger say if it could speak?
I started writing because someone asked me what I would do if I knew I wouldn't fail.
What about you?
Ever wondered Why? What? How come? What questions have rocked your world? What questions have shaped your writing or transformed who you are?
Who do you ask? What do you want to know?